Do you guys ever feel like punching someone? Like seriously knocking them out to beat some sense into them? Well I get that feeling often, I wish that I could go back in time and beat the shit outa myself for so many things that I do/have done. God… its like I’ll do something then the next minute I’ll be regretting it and feeling like shit. I guess thats where all the insecurity I have comes from. I hate making mistakes and I hate remembering my mistakes. Everyone else seems to blow off mistakes easily, I don’t feel right doing so. Haha I guess its cuz I grew up with the principle of being punished for every small mistake and always having my mistakes instantly pointed out so I could be punished. But now that I am in college… it’s just different. No one points them out anymore. But I always feel the need to somehow redeem myself to the invisible eyes of the world. Odd isn’t it? Like I would think about it and know its stupid, but when the time comes its been too built into my character to change I guess and so I immediately turn to self-revulsion. Eh oh well. ok time to go back to studying.